I Am So So So Sorry Guys! My Love Is Always Here Though!

Hello folks I am going to start out by saying I am so sorry about not writing. After not getting my surgery and the Boston Tragedy and finals in school I have been wanting to write and just kept putting it in the back of my mind. Well I am going to start again because I love you folks who read, and I love writing about my struggle in everyday life for people to relate to. With that said welcome back.

Okay, so first on my agenda is I would like you all to poke around on my blogger page. I have a few things on here that I would like people to try to use. I have a follow me section, what you do is leave your email and you receive a message about my newest blog, pretty neat. I also have a spot for the fruits and vegetables that are in season currently. I figured this being a weight loss blog I should have something healthy on here. And last but not least I have a Leave Me Some Feedback. Feedback for anyone is great. Negative, positive, have a question, write something anything and I promise I will try to work with it in my next post. Okay with that said I will move on.

So everyone is probably wanting to know what happened with my surgery. Well seeing I have issues with lymphedema and circulation, because I am large, I need to have a filter placed into my femoral artery. On top of that I am a very hard stick again because I am large and also I have crappy veins so they are wanting to place a P.I.C.C line. In order to do so you need to go to Interventional Radiology and they do these "small procedures" for you. So as I was on my way and ready the machine breaks and freezes. So my surgeon decided to post pone my surgery to a later date. I decided I deserved a tuna sandwich at this point and went to eat one as a reward. With that said, yes I am back on the liquid diet until my surgery date May 13th. The filter and P.I.C.C. line will be placed in on the Friday before surgery so we won't have any reasons to turn back. In the mean time I am shoving my face full of yogurt and wishing I could have one salad to curb my cravings, but we all know what one salad leads to.
Anyways so far on the liquid diet I have lost my own zip code and am no just a house address which is good I suppose. The post before surgery I will reveal to the world my real numbers but for right now I am just going to let you guess. Anyways school for me is done, thank god, and now I have to do my externship. It is interesting to see how you have to apply what you learned in school to the real world, it has only been day one but I pray I get the hang of it later on. The only thing that has really changed in life is instead of school I go to work, sadly I don't get paid yet, but I have a strong feeling that soon I will. Only 192 Hours Left!

I have so much I would like to accomplish this year I don't think I have the space time-wise to do so. My thoughts lately have been jumping around from one thing to another. I have been trying hard to get an apartment and car. Cheap apartment and car but what else would anyone expect. Anyways, I have decided this summer is my summer to only wear dresses unless weather permits pants for whatever reason...it is New England after all. I feel with a new look on life I deserve a new look myself. It's My NEW ME year. Anyways that is all for now. OH! one more thing I think I am going to start vlogging, it is not official yet but just a heads up! I will spread more details when I start doing it. Anyways this is all I am going to write for right now. I am super tired. I will post tomorrow. Anyways good night. Love you guys. <3 Stay Beautiful!

Half Way Point Of The Liquid Diet.

Hey guys. I would like to start off by saying sorry for not posting a blog in the last three days. I have not been feeling well at all. I would also like to point out I am about halfway through my liquid diet before my surgery. I feel that my body will eventually not become so sick and just let me go back to my normal routines. I know with the liquid diet that my body is using the fats I have stored to nourish my body but cravings and lack of chewing is causing me pains I can't explain. I feel achy, tired, nauseous, and easily agitated. It helps me to know that I am doing this for my health and after this week it will be well worth the long battle.

In order to reserve some energy for tomorrow in class I have been relaxing, drinking plenty of fluids, and so I don't have cravings avoiding the kitchen and watching t.v. I decided to watch netflix. There is a movie called Fat, Sick, & Nearly Dead. It is about a man who is tired of being sick and big and wants to change his life for the better. He goes on a juicing fast for 60 days while travelling across the US. It is pretty interesting to watch and I have learned a lot about my body while watching the movie. Please note that everything I am doing and that he does in the film is monitored by medical professionals and you should in no way try it on your own without consulting with your doctor first.

In the film he touches base on his emotions on the first few days or so and I feel I have't really done so with you as my readers. I would like to say emotionally right now I am feeling confident but at the same time I feel  like I have to exclude myself from a lot with my friends and family. A lot of things my friends and family do revolve around food and seeing I can't eat food right now I feel I have to decline or try to steer them in a food less direction. It can be hard because a lot of good times happen around cooking with them or eating and in some regards I feel that I am punishing them with my diet. Why should they have to be punished when I am the one who wants to lose the weight? Well in trying to fix that I have planned out a lot of cool things to look forward to this summer. Seeing I have never been to Water Country I feel maybe my friends and I should plan a trip there or maybe even go to Six Flags over the weekend. Instead of spending $100 on food and go home feeling like we are about to explode we can spend it on a trip somewhere and have memories that will last forever. These small things help me to get through no longer eating with friends or family. Another thing I have been struggling with is feeling as though I will never be able to eat again. This emotional roller coaster is taking a toll on me along with the liquids only. I feel drained and just want to sleep until next Monday. I don't really know how many posts this week I am going to do because I definitely know this week I am going to be sleeping as much as I can. Anyways this is all I can really write down for today. <3 Stay Beautiful.

Protein Supplements....Is It Good For You?

So seeing I am on a liquid diet I feel that I should talk to you about my liquid diet. My liquid diet consists of protein shakes, soup broth, unsweetened applesauce, diluted juice, sugar free Jell-O and yogurt with no fruit pieces (I stuck with vanilla). Protein is key to staying full and active with plenty of energy. A good way to start your morning is with protein. I do my Muscle Milk protein shake in the morning and afternoon. For snacks I like a lighter protein so I will have some yogurt or applesauce. For dinner I usually am home and depending on my appetite I will have some broth or a shake again. My goal is to have between 60 - 65 grams of protein a day. So most people think if you buy a protein powder from the vitamin store or the health food store that it is automatically good for you. THAT IS NOT THE CASE! I want to teach you how to find a good protein powder so if you wanted to replace your meals with a protein shake you won't have any problems doing so. The first thing you want to do when looking at a protein powder is look at the Nutritional Facts label. A good protein powder or pre-mixed drink will have 20 or more grams of protein per serving. The Muscle Milk I use currently is 30 or so plus the protein from my milk which is 8 grams. So in one serving I am getting 38 grams of protein. The next thing you want to look at is the calories in the protein shake. This is where companies try and trick you with hidden sugars and weight gaining no-no's. A good protein will have about 200 or less. The Muscle Milk I use has about 150, you should also look at the calories from fat because if its 200 calories and 100 are from fat chances are it may not be good for you in the end. Another good protein source I like is Carnation Instant Breakfast No Sugar Added. You just add some milk and stir. Some protein powders are made from soy, milk, vegetables, and nuts. So if you are like me and have food allergies you should read the labels to make sure you aren't going to get sick. If you want to have the premixed protein drinks, you should be really careful of the amount of sugar they put into them. Drinking empty calories is not a good way to go. When transitioning to drinking protein you may get tired at first but don't stop your body is only getting adjusted to the shock. Also they have unflavored protein powders so you can mix them with fruits and vegetables and make your own delicious flavor. With that said go out there and make some smoothies especially with the warm weather coming in. And remember Stay Beautiful.

Hump Day For The Liquid Diet!

Hey Everyone! I would like to congratulate myself for a few things before I tell you about my day. First off I would like to say thank you to my readers you have boosted my confidence a lot. Second off I am going to do a little congratulations dance for my page having 18+ views in just one day. And my other congratulations to myself goes to three days strong of just drinking fluids. Can I get a big woot woot!! Anyways everyone will be happy to know that I am no longer tired. I have energy galore today and I don't know why. Today in class we have two tests then I am leaving early to go to some doctors appointments. I realized that I stay in school for about 8 hours a day and I am only in class for 4 so for the other 4 I will write a blog about my morning so if its a great day you will get TWO whole blogs from me. YAY! Anyways this morning was a beautiful day, a little chilly but gorgeous. I may go for a walk or two today depending on how it is after the appointments. I weighed myself to check in and I am happy to say I lost 3 pounds on top of the weight I lost before they okayed my surgery. So I feel I am on the right track but I also feel I lost that weight because all I am doing is drinking fluids.

I would like everyone to know I am going to make a separate blog for recipes and exercise, which I will do when I have made a few of them and done some at home exercise. I would like to let everyone know that so far the plan is the 14th will either be my last post or my friend will be writing my posts for me. I have no clue I need to see how I will be after surgery.

Ok now to tell everyone about my day. I went and saw my therapist. We talked about the upcoming surgery and the things that will be changing in my life soon. I was glad to talk to someone about the big changes and how to take them on one at a time. It was good to get a few things off of my chest. I also feel I did really well on my tests in class today so I am looking forward to receiving my grades. Trying hard for the president's list this term. Today with the liquid diet was okay. The good news is I am no longer craving any foods too much. I am still sleepy and drained but for the most part I can function. I don't know though we will see. I will say chicken soup protein is NASTY. At least I am halfway to my goal, and one step closer to my overall achievement.  Remember folks weight loss IS NOT a temporary thing it is a LIFESTYLE change, and until you can realize that you are not going to reach your goal. With that said I am going to go and get my 8 hours in. I will blog some more tomorrow I do know what tomorrow will be about...stay tuned and stay beautiful!

The Beginning Of My Battle

Hello. For those of you who do not know me, my name is Tia. I am 20 years old and I currently go to school as a Medical Assistant. You are probably asking why on earth would I start a blog if I seem normal. Well the answer is quite simple. I AM FAT!...and sick of it. That is what this whole blog is about. Me being fat and trying to lose weight...scratch that. SUCCEEDING at losing weight. I feel that doctors just want to make you miserable and tell you to lose weight but never tell you HOW. It's a pain in the ass really. Yes I know I am fat I didn't need you to tell me my pants are size "Enter Your Own Zip Code Here", all I wanted was for you to fix my damn allergies. Anyways enough of me poking fun of doctors. I am a 20 year old that is on a journey for a new healthy lifestyle. I hope writing a blog will keep me on my toes. I will admit yes I am getting the Gastric Bypass, but let me tell you IT IS NOT THE EASY WAY OUT. I am committing to a lifestyle that will last longer than any lovey dovey relationship. So here is a little about myself. I am 5' 4" right now I weigh about 320 Pounds (I know...I said enter in my own zip code for a reason). I am allergic to peanuts, soy, wheat, and eggs. I am slightly active but recently the energy I have is like getting out of bed and riding the transit is my work out for the day. My gastric bypass is April 15,2013. I am currently on an all liquid diet. In this blog I hope to cover everything about weight loss from nutrition and recipes to exercises and emotional issues. Even though I want to blog EVERYDAY I know with the hectic life I live it probably won't be everyday. It will be as everyday as possible. So now that I covered some of who I am I feel as every battle has, I should tell you my history.

I have been fat 90% of my life. Though I was fat I was active. I was in swimming, dancing, martial arts, girl scouts, you name it I probably did it once or twice. The doctors always told me to lose weight, I tried every childhood diet known to man. And the one thing that always pissed me off is one dietitian said this is right when another said this is wrong. Why can't they all agree to one thing. Anyways, so a year ago a friend of mine and I decided to get in shape. I worked my ass off in the gym and it started to show. My face got thinner and pant size went down to "Enter Your Own House Address" and I started to feel great. After about 30 pounds though I plateaued and I stopped the weight loss. It was depressing to see. I thought if I worked out harder that I would start losing weight again, but sadly it didn't work. I sort of gave up on the gym and heard that my mom was starting up for the weight loss surgery. So I talked to my doctor and she thought I would be a great candidate for it. So I called the surgery place and they told me how to get started. And here I am less than 14 days away from my surgery. I can't wait to start dropping pounds like mad. But that for the most part is all I can tell right now. I will have so much more to speak of tomorrow. Stay Tuned.