Hey guys. I would like to start off by saying sorry for not posting a blog in the last three days. I have not been feeling well at all. I would also like to point out I am about halfway through my liquid diet before my surgery. I feel that my body will eventually not become so sick and just let me go back to my normal routines. I know with the liquid diet that my body is using the fats I have stored to nourish my body but cravings and lack of chewing is causing me pains I can't explain. I feel achy, tired, nauseous, and easily agitated. It helps me to know that I am doing this for my health and after this week it will be well worth the long battle.
In order to reserve some energy for tomorrow in class I have been relaxing, drinking plenty of fluids, and so I don't have cravings avoiding the kitchen and watching t.v. I decided to watch netflix. There is a movie called Fat, Sick, & Nearly Dead. It is about a man who is tired of being sick and big and wants to change his life for the better. He goes on a juicing fast for 60 days while travelling across the US. It is pretty interesting to watch and I have learned a lot about my body while watching the movie. Please note that everything I am doing and that he does in the film is monitored by medical professionals and you should in no way try it on your own without consulting with your doctor first.
In the film he touches base on his emotions on the first few days or so and I feel I have't really done so with you as my readers. I would like to say emotionally right now I am feeling confident but at the same time I feel like I have to exclude myself from a lot with my friends and family. A lot of things my friends and family do revolve around food and seeing I can't eat food right now I feel I have to decline or try to steer them in a food less direction. It can be hard because a lot of good times happen around cooking with them or eating and in some regards I feel that I am punishing them with my diet. Why should they have to be punished when I am the one who wants to lose the weight? Well in trying to fix that I have planned out a lot of cool things to look forward to this summer. Seeing I have never been to Water Country I feel maybe my friends and I should plan a trip there or maybe even go to Six Flags over the weekend. Instead of spending $100 on food and go home feeling like we are about to explode we can spend it on a trip somewhere and have memories that will last forever. These small things help me to get through no longer eating with friends or family. Another thing I have been struggling with is feeling as though I will never be able to eat again. This emotional roller coaster is taking a toll on me along with the liquids only. I feel drained and just want to sleep until next Monday. I don't really know how many posts this week I am going to do because I definitely know this week I am going to be sleeping as much as I can. Anyways this is all I can really write down for today. <3 Stay Beautiful.
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