HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!

Hello everyone! Happy Fourth Of July!!! I am sorry about not blogging...I know it is turning into a bad habit of mine. I have been so busy lately with everything. My surgery recovery to internship to just my life in general.
Recently, since everyone has told me to get a life, I have been working on it. The problem is when you are overweight you tend to have low to NO self esteem, I mean my friends, like my real friends know the real me but my new friends or the ones I try to make don't know me as well so would probably be more judgmental than my real friends. I decided to take up dancing again. It is a great class but at the class I am the biggest one and the one who came into the class in the middle of the dance year. It stinks because everyone is already friends with someone else in some way or another, but I am determined to make one friend. Also, I LOVE this class. It is Indian Classical Dance. It is really hard and I practice as much as I can but it is hard to practice when you don't really know it that well. So, the teacher is letting me come a few extra days a week to drill the dance into me as much as the other dances have it drilled into them. I know I will be ready for October (when the dance is presented) because I am not a quitter and in the years I did dance I NEVER backed down from a performance.
Another thing I tell everyone is, when I went to get the filter removed from my surgery, they found a blood clot. It is tiny so no need to worry, but they did not get to remove it because of the clot. So I have had to adjust my life accordingly because of the clot. I am on blood thinners now so I have to plan my life out more than before. Because having gastric bypass wasn't hard as is. I have to plan my day out for something as simple as going to the grocery store. Yes, I do carry a planner around now. I bring bags with me everywhere I go. I bring them to the store, out with friends, concerts, EVERYWHERE. The things I can NEVER leave home without are; Asthma Medicines, Epi-pens, Water(for the entire day), Blood Thinners, Alcohol Pads, A Snack Or Two, and Allergy Pills. Like today we went to go to the fireworks and even though they said no bags I had to bring one. I sure as hell can't carry all that in my hands and a lot of those medicines can't be exposed to sunlight so clear bags were a no go. I wanted to live life on the edge like most young adults and teens do. Now, if I forget like water, that is my life on the edge. I never loved water as much as I do now. If I forget water for a day, I get full body aches, my head HURTS, I see stars and the room spins when I get up. It is the worst feeling ever, I just want to sleep. However if I drink water after the symptoms appear an hour or so later I am good. So planning every hours of my life is hell but I feel it is good for me. Makes me feel responsible knowing I am ready for the entire day.
Today was the fourth of July. And in three days begins Ramadan. I am going to warn you all right now I am participating in this holiday and will be glad to share my experience around August 9th. I will be posting one more blog before it begins and may post a blog half way through so I can keep everyone updated. This will also give me time to work on Deep Confessions Part 2, as well as work on myself in a religious perspective. I feel I am working on myself health wise, mentality wise, but leaving religious views out. I feel maybe everyone in some aspect should have a religious side to them and everyone's views will be different but they are something you should work on as you grow older. So that is about it. I mean other than trying to find a boyfriend. That search is well not so grand but he is out there for me and one day I shall find him and be happy. Until then I will focus on me. Anyways it is late. Happy 4th Of July. I Hope everyone had a great day. I will blog again eventually. Love You. And Remember, Stay Beautiful.