A Letter To My Bullies

Dear Bullies,

I don't know what caused you to induce so much pain on someone you barely knew. What did she ever do to you? She was new and in need of friends. You told her you were her friend and you lead her astray. Your love wasn't real, she knew you didn't care, but she took the abuse you placed on her everyday. I wonder if you would have stopped if you known she would cry herself to sleep. Or stop if you knew she was self harming at age 7, because she didn't understand. Or if you would had stopped knowing she DREADED going to school or seeing you on the streets. Hell, she dreads seeing you now. I wonder if you would have stopped knowing she has been in and out of shrinks for depression and anxiety, not being able to deal with your constant aggression. Sure you never really laid a hand on her but your words cut her like a knife to butter. The soul purpose she would try to starve herself. The soul purpose she looks in the mirror now and doesn't see beauty, but sees a fat, loser. You are the soul reason she feels she will NEVER EVER amount to anything in life. You are the soul reason she has tried to take her own life numerous times. Sure, to you it was just jokes of being fat or not being to be active because her asthma wasn't under control, but to her it scarred her. Scarred her so bad that she is doing great. She has a 3.88 GPA, but to her, she is a moron. She has lost 82 pounds but to her, she is the fattest she has ever been. You scarred her so bad she can't even take compliments, and feels everyone laughs when she walks in a room. Laughing at her for whatever, whether it is the new outfit she bought, or the new hairstyle she thought looked cute. You scarred her so bad it even affects her relationships. She doesn't want to let anyone in after the way you were. And why the hell should she...you, damn, selfish, insecure assholes scarred her so bad that she can't feel real love and warmth when it surrounds her. She would cry and thought EVERYONE hated her because of the things you would say. The things you would do...the things you wrote on her field day shirt, or her yearbook. Oh you thought she would forget, because she is sure you definitely did. But your actions really messed her up. Most of you are starting to have children now, and would want to protect them from bullies, but think really hard at how you were in school. The PAIN you inflicted on someone else. THAT SOMEONE BEING SOMEONE ELSE'S BABY! And teach your children not to be that way. It is too late for the girl, her wounds are mending, but it is not too late for the youth of today. So please stop them from making fun of someone because they are different, you don't know what they do behind closed doors.
And to those who I bullied or poked fun at...I am truly sorry. I know these words mean nothing because of the pain I have caused. I have no idea why I did so. Maybe because I wanted someone else to feel the pain I too was feeling. For whatever my reason was I truly am sorry and hope to God I NEVER pushed anyone to hurting themselves or anything. With that said I just really want Bullying to stop....

Yours Truly,

The Victim and The Bully
Tia.

P.S. Stay Beautiful