I Want...

I need to take a minute to write this, a minute of my time and be selfish.

I want so much. I truly do.
I want to finish school and become a successful doctor.
I want to be the ultimate mother/working mom, known to man.
I want a loving husband, who will understand me like no one else. I want him to laugh and joke, but know when to be serious and get down to business. I want a man who will love me for me and not because he thinks since I am overweight and have below average self esteem I am easy to get in bed...I want a man who will talk to me regardless of his mood or how busy he is, notice me ALL the time not just some of the time.
I know I prayed more than ever for a good job and I got this job working as a medical assistant for challenged adults/seniors. I have prayed over and over for a man that just completes me and I only get jerks. Guys who use me, would usually consider me invisible, or guys I liked, but they have no interest in me. Pfft, I really hate being called the old maid, even if it is a joke...Out of all my friends I am the one that wants a husband, kids, and my future job. Yet, I am the only one that gets a step stone of a good job...I don't understand.

I have officially given up with guys. I am focusing on me, and whatever else happens, happens. I am not hanging with friends who have a significant other, Just sticking to myself...forever....

Anyways Stay Beautiful

Love you....Bye.